Tuesday, June 5

A Servant of All

Motherhood is a lot of bending and picking up.  It is stooping to tie shoes and kiss boo-boos.  Kneeling to clean up spills, tuck in sheets, scrub out disgusting toilets, plant a kiss on top of soft heads; lowering oneself to grab a toddler's hand or hug a pre-teen who has had a rough day. 
Freshly bathed babushka baby. Motherhood is bending, stooping, humbling. 
It is choosing to be the least on the totem pole.  It is being the one who gets up the earliest and gets to sleep latest at night after the day is done.  It is giving up a sausage at breakfast for a child who wants another, saying you're really too full to eat another scone, or pouring out of your own cup into another's. It is all day pouring out, watering, nourishing, giving.Got a little wet at The Redeemer Cup
I'll admit, I don't take to being the least very contentedly. 
I grumbled at morning sickness that lasted all day and my body being a living sacrifice.  I grumble that no reprieve is given - that meals must be cooked by me, lessons must be completed by me, laundry must be done by me...
I grumble that there is no break.  I do it quietly and inwardly, but still, I grumble.
UntitledAnd I pray dearly for God to change my heart.
It is selfish ambition, this wishing to be served.  Wishing to be stooped to.  "Where selfish ambition is there is disorder" is a paraphrase from the book of James.  Is it any wonder that so many mother's first complaint is against disorder (from Stong's Concordance: instability, a state of disorder, disturbance, confusion, dissension)in the home?  When the atmosphere of my heart is on pity for self, one of the first things I notice is disorder in our home.  King David cried out to God to turn his heart towards the Lord's laws and away from selfishness.
I cry this too.
I know He (who stooped lowest, bent to be crushed, humbled to die) hears too every cry, every prayer, every plea for grace from you, dear mama, as you stoop and humble and become a servant of all.


19 comments:

Ruth said...

Such good and timely words. :)

Bonnie said...

Ouch. And thank-you.

Pam... said...

Amen.

Anonymous said...

I needed this today, Hannah, as I battle clutter and wish the rest of the family cared as much about tidiness as I do. ;-) Thank you!

joyarchives said...

I didn't fully understand servanthood until I became a mom. Motherhood is such a privilege... and lots of sacrifice. Yet love multiplies, doesn't it?

Love this post! Such blessing.

xoxo, flo

Emily said...

I am there with you Hannah. I just spent some time last week asking Jesus to please change my attitude. It makes all the difference in the world. Thankfully He is patient and gracious with us!

Momma Bug said...

This, so much needed - always and again - thank you for gentle exhortation and truth.

Anonymous said...

Wow.. Thanks for sharing that, Hannah.
Blessings to you,
Amy

Kristine said...

We need to always be mindful of the battle for our hearts. I'm a homemaker with an "empty nest", but I still have a husband to serve and now my live-in, disabled, elderly father. It's still meals to cook, floors to scrub, laundry to wash, buttoning cuffs, tieing shoes, extra hugs. A privilege and a sacrifice. When I find myself wishing for a break or reviewing my sacrifices in my head, I have to stop and pray that I will water the enemy's seeds of discontent and that I will have a heart to serve with gladness. I've become convinced the battle starts in our minds. "...and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ." 2Co10:5 Thank you for your beautifully written reminder.

BL said...

Thanks I needed that.

Nic said...

LOVE THIS!

Anonymous said...

A beautiful reminder of things that are good.
Jo

olga.zhidileva@yandex.ru said...

Thank you for sharing your thoughts, i needed needed needed to read this. One of these days i also found this quote of Mother Teresa and i thought it can be applied great to motherhood: "Sweetest Lord, make me appreciative of the dignity of my high vocation, and its many responsibilities. Never permit me to disgrace it by giving way to coldness, unkindness, or impatience."
This prayer and your post are my remedies to stop whining and grimbling)))

Missy said...

Amen,you speak what is on my heart. A very gently put reminder.

Anonymous said...

Love this.. I see all these blogs with moms and their perfect looking houses.. and I am like.. how do they do it..

yea well thank you for this..

Sue in NJ

Anonymous said...

Thanks for the wonderful words reminding us of our duties. I wish I only grumbled to myself! I've been praying for a meek and humble spirit lately. I always think of the scripture about not fainting in well doing. Perseverance is the key. Janet

Emily said...

I needed to read this today. Thank you

Jen said...

wow- the part about disorder in the home being linked to our own selfish ambitions.... very true, and good for me to remember!

Jen said...

Love the part about the home being ordered or not.... true!