Monday, September 5

She laughs...


I love this photo from the weekend.

It is blurry.

One of our precious and precocious children took it but I love it

because I laugh.

I never used to much.

I didn't understand that in order to know joy, you had to understand sorrow and I braced and steeled myself against that.

Then we had a baby with funky kidneys and then we lost a baby and other life *stuff* with people I love much and then Sean's been not well for a few years and now... now I can laugh.

I wipe tears easily as they flow - but how I can laugh!

A precious girlfriend told me I glow.

I praise God for that.

Tears rolled down my cheeks tonight as Sean and I looked through the family photos we took on the beach with a timer and tripod over the weekend and six vibrant personalities shine through in them - oh, how I laughed!

And I praise God for the wonder of *feeling* things so easily, sorrow and joy, and knowing they are gifts, crazy as that might all seem.

Proverbs 31:25 she is clothed in strength and dignity, and she laughs at the days to come...


nono said...

What a beautiful photo and post.

Ruby Jean said...

Hannah this is so very precious and even more is that you Laugh that Joy is restored though the scares still remain...Have a blessed week...

p.s. I have been meaning to email you and will try to this week..

Nicole said...

I never realized before how much I held life at a distance because I was so afraid of feeling. I lived always waiting for the other shoe to drop, but praise God that he healed me and offers me the freedom to live unafraid. Now I know the joy of living (with all the emotions) and I know what it means when the bible says.. "her children arise and called her blessed (happy)". The joy of the Lord is written all over my face.

Joy said...

You're beautiful, Hannah!

Lisa said...

Dear Hannah,
first I need to tell you, that I love your writing style. Of course it's not so easy for me to express what I think in (my only-learned-in-school-)English, but I hope, you will understand ;-).
Mostly when I read your posts I think that you are so right, I know exactly, how you feel - In many things I feel so very similar.
This is one of those posts. And it reminds me of a song we have sung last sunday in church, that tells, that laughing and crying shall be blessed. And this is so right, and I really think people who are able to have real and deep feelings, good and bad, are blessed.
Life does not only have a bright side, we have to live with both sides, but we even don't need to give up and to stay at the darker side to long, like some people do.
Thank you for sharing your thoughts.
I send you best wishes from Germany,

Aritha said...

This touches my!

Deanna Rabe - Creekside Cottage Blog said...

Laughter is healing, and life giving!

Glad you have found joy....


Bethany Lynn said...

Wow. I needed this. Thank you Hannah!

Natalie at Maple Leaf Circle said...

What a beautiful post! I agree that being able to truly feel every emotion is a gracious gift from God. Thank you for sharing!

Momma Bug said...

It seems like tears are near the surface today. I am tired, and that's the natural progression after several months of nursing a new baby nights. Alas, joy eludes me and I know it. I am thankful. I am grateful. I am content. But laughter doesn't come easily.
I want to embrace joy! I want my children to no have to earn my smiles, my laughter, my joyful countenance.
I realize that joy is born within, but I also see a need to practice some of those things that form habits (such as smiling when it isn't a natural response).
Thanks for being one more confirmation to my resolve to worship the Lord ALL the moments:-)


Raising Mighty Arrows said...

Love it!

Debbie said...

Beautiful photo! Thank you for writing such a wonderful post.