Sean had risen a little after 4:30, as I was cozied up nursing Addie, to go hunting and the next thing I knew I was looking at my cell phone in amazement at the time. There would be no time for a quiet cup of tea, Bible and journal laid open beside me that morning, I knew. Already the boys were elephant-feeting it down their staircase and up ours, Chase had poo-poo-ed in his diaper, Addie was hungry again, Ella walked in with her hair sticking straight up and wearing a conglomerate of an outfit. Sean was still out hunting. I was tired. My head hurt.
And so I started singing in my still froggy early morning voice, but I worshipped and I heard Aiden walking by on his way to feed the dog singing along. And I sang to Addie about God as she nursed, and Chase and I sang his new favorite, "He's got the Whole World" while we cleaned him up and put on "Thomas twain" undies and I sang while brushing out Ella's hair, I don't remember what but we smiled together and laughed before heading downstairs for a cold cereal and banana breakfast.
Sometimes life happens and messes up our plans. A lot of times life happens and messes up our plans. It's okay.
Later that evening, while sweeping the evidence of a busy family life off the floors, reading my chicken butchering hate mail (!) in my inbox, and tidying up the house, I turned on one of my favorite resources for encouragement, slaps side the head, and mental stimulation as a woman. Nancy Leigh DeMoss's messages are wonderful. If you don't mind that Paul of the Bible was most likely single and possibly Titus too, than you won't have an issue that God can use a single woman to minister wisdom regarding Biblical womanhood. Either way, anyone who teaches straight from the word of God should not be judged on their marital status. (just my happy two cents :)
So while I sorted through a bin of toys and swept up the ones hiding under the sofa, I listened to this message on Grace for Tired, Discouraged Hearts, because even when we as women seek God and His will for our lives there will almost always been outside sources of conflict waring against us. Sean and I do have something special in our marriage and home that God has created. It is easy to write about the happier points of our lives but I am human. Hurtful words hurt me. I'm not immune to attacks on my family. This past month has been one of the hardest as I've physically tried to recover from Addie's birth (very anemic, bleh...) and mentally tried to stay strong and focus on the most important things, which are my relationship with the Lord and my family.
Life happens. Luckily God is bigger than life.
Now before you run away, hop over to my friend (who is a fabulous woman, wife and mama) Al's blog and leave her a prayer or note of encouragement, will you?