These unique children are such a blessing to my life. Yesterday Aiden was helping me paint and, seizing the opportunity to praise him for being a diligent worker, I told him that if he likes to paint, as he gets older he can earn money by painting for other people.
He is meticulous in whatever work he does and I love that. He looks up at me with his little blond head shaking and says, "No, Mama. I'm gonna be a farmer. Because when I pray, I know that's what God wants me to be."
This is the innocence I want to protect as long as possible. Simple faith of a five year old farmer. This is why our family has boundaries.
Contemplating the unpopularity but amazing peace that has come this past year because of boundaries set in place to protect our home and family, I've resigned that I won't be the peacemaker at the cost of truth. With that comes the peace, rushing, following, settling in my soul. In struggling to maintain integrity in a gritty situation (so hard because I am oh, so sinful), biting my tongue and not speaking out in my own defense, asking forgiveness and holding.
As we talked, I told a sweet friend that I often regret that I didn't come with a big happy family to share with my children.
Later, I realized that they only know what they experience and we do family BIG. We do birthday's BIG. Not with gifts or parties but with the celebration of their lives. We do love in a BIG way. We do fun and adventure BIG. We do time together BIG and Sean and I rejoice to see the heritage we didn't think we had to share, our kids are being blessed with.
The kiddos already talk about coming over to our house when they are all grown for brunch with blueberry pancakes, or so this someday Grandma can babysit and give raspberries to grand babies, or so farmer boy can bring me some milk from his farm.
This, I love. Even my little wanna-be missionary knows that wherever the world takes her, there will always be a room and a cozy bed with a quilt on it waiting just for her.
My children wrap their arms around me and we pray. We spend family days. Beautiful family days. Grandpa telling stories around the bonfire of when he was a little boy, tracking deer, picking apples, picnics overlooking the lake, and listening to owls hoot at night at the cabin. We build truth into their hearts, value for one another, respect for God's written Word, prayers for those who hurt us and prayers for peace. A little of what the whole world needs, right?