Wednesday, April 15

Peace.

We are blessed.
One by one this week our friends began lining themselves up to watch our kiddos one night a week so we can begin our certification to work with the foster care system. I am realizing the blessing of friendship and the beauty of having a community of friends, believers and fellow educators around us. Honestly, the foster care system, broken as it is, overwhelms me. Right now though, this is where we sense God calling us to get involved and we are excited to begin this journey.

As I sit here by the window, watching the children play outside, there is a lot on my mind. I am human and I am a far from perfect specimen. Part of me wants to be emotional and self-righteous and point fingers and shed light on the dark places where I think light ought to be shone. I'm being honest. I am really not a good person, struggling with what I am called to do as a Christian in this situation.

In prayer I felt called to ask forgiveness for my part. To leave things. Be quiet. Not to speak out in our defense. All this at the cost of losing relationship with people I really care about as opinions about me turn sour.

So maybe that is why I am overwhelmed with thankfulness for friends this morning. And for my family. For a husband who wraps his arms around me and prays. For kids to laugh with and pour love on. For warm dirt to dig in, plopping pea seeds one by one. For laundry whipping in the wind and peace in my heart.

Psalm 43 are the words God is whispering over my soul this morning as I pray the words within those verses. My hope is in God.

13 comments:

Anna said...

I am so excited! You will be a great foster family for a child! It is very hard, but very good and life changing at the same time! Here is my blog if you want to read a little about our foster care experience (although, I rarely update). www.xanga.com/az_kz

Karen said...

Glen and I did full time therapeutic foster care for many years and felt God's hand and blessing in it. There are so many children out there who just need a family - even a temporary one. We are again getting certified to do respite care (on weekends and while the foster family goes on vacation or needs a break) and it will be a stretch for us -- yet we feel the hand of God in it. Be blessed! There is no doubt that the foster care experience will stretch you and enlarge your tent but you will be blessed by it and bless others through it.

Beth said...

Oh, I'm so excited for you! We started our foster care journey just over a year ago... beginning with the 30 hours of classes, and the mass amounts of paperwork to become licensed.

In NC, we are limited to a total of 5 children in the home, so I guess NY has a larger limit? We currently have 3 bios and 1 foster son who we've had since July of last year. It's an amazing, crazy, difficult, character building, precious experience. We are blessed to be working with a pretty decent DSS, although the system as a whole is very flawed.

We are hoping to adopt our darling foster son... but because of the mountains of red tape and second chances for delinquent parents, he will not be legally free for adoption for many more months. God is using this process to teach us in many ways.

Congratulations on starting the journey!

Beth said...
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Persuaded said...

i did foster care for many years... infants mostly. until it broke my heart♥

blessings to you as you begin your own journey.

patricialuann said...

How wonderful the Lord is leading you in this direction.... so many are needed for God's children and fostering is a true gift.
Be blessed... love the photos!
Patricia

New Mom said...

Hi Hannah, how exciting and intimidating to begin the road towards foster care! One thing that I didn't find out until after completing my requirements, is that it is usually best to take in a child that is younger than your own children. I should've figured that out on my own-- it makes sense doesn't it-- but I didn't and I wish someone would've told me sooner! If you'd like to read more about our foster care licensure journey, check my blog under the label "adoption." Hopefully, your process will be a lot smoother!

Zebu said...

Hannah, I am sorry for the struggles it seems you are going through.

Della said...

There is no way to fail when you're relying totally on God to completely do what He's calling you to. Prayers and blessings to you on the start of this journey.

Anonymous said...

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.

--Reinhold Niebuhr


I say it several times a day. Good luck with your classes you both will work wonders.

sue

Dianna said...

I used to have a coat just like that - in brown - about 30 years ago! Loved it and love the way you look in it!

Hannah said...

Hi Beth, so sorry that second comment appeared on here. I deleted it after I emailed you from my email account and didn't realize it was getting published on here! Very, very, very sorry!
Hannah

Pam said...

Staying quiet and letting God take care of tough or sticky circumstances is the best way. He is so very effective at turning circumstances into glorious things, and often when we interfere, we make things messier. John Piper says "In every situation God is doing 1000 different things that we cannot see and we do not know." Bless you in this, and in the exciting adventure of foster care and adoption. You will be blessed and you will honor God by doing it! Post often!